hot_tramp: lady gaga (gaga-dancefloor)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 07:28pm on 06/03/2013 under ,
I listened to waaaaaaaay too much chick-metal and angst-rock today, desperately trying to find a song for my planned vid. (Well, one of my planned vids.) It's about bearing the weight of difficult choices, and lemme tell ya, it's hard to find a song that works for that! As my friend pointed out today, very few songs with a female vocalist pass the Bechdel test. It's boys and lurve and sex and breakups from morning 'til night.

Current top contender: "Stand My Ground," by Within Temptation. And it's still a little too chipper. I really like the idea of this cover of Linkin Park's "Numb" and "What I've Done," but the production is a little weird, and I would feel like a complete brat if I messaged the musician like "Hey, your vocals are way too low in the middle, so could you maybe mix this again? And if you could add 60-90 seconds, that would be great!" I guess "Fear and Loathing" by Marina and the Diamonds is still kind of in the running.

I may say fuck it and use "Army of Me" or "Destroy Everything You Touch." Fortunately, I don't need to decide right now. I still have a shitload of frapsing and clipping to do.
Music:: "Make Me Wanna Die," The Pretty Reckless
Mood:: frustrated
hot_tramp: kara thrace is a bitch (bsg-karabitch)
But wow, is there ever a lot of badfic in Mass Effect fandom.

I freely admit that any Original Character protagonist automatically puts a story in my badfic bin. Particularly when they're paired with a canon character. Boyfriend thinks Mass Effect fandom is particularly ripe for Mary Sues because so many people play the games in a self-insert kinda way.

There's also a lot of longfic. That's not inherently bad, but it's annoying when I'm looking for a quick smutty read and have to wade through a lot of 50k+ word epics. Oh, and another instant badfic indicator for me: Abuse of author's notes. If there's one at the end of every chapter, I start having fanfiction.net flashbacks and break out in hives.

On the plus side, I am finding a steady supply of decent porn! I think I'm possibly enjoying the Turian sex a bit much. That's like half a step from furries, right?
Mood:: bitchy
Music:: "Hole in My Head," Dixie Chicks
hot_tramp: ten commandments kink (religion-kink)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 06:37pm on 03/03/2013 under ,
Both of my boyfriends are vanilla, and while they know I'm kinky, we generally don't discuss specifics. I think they know the broad strokes thanks to a) stuff I own, b) things I've written on LJ in the past, and c) offhand comments I've made. But I feel weird talking about it with them in any detail because they are, like, the anti-fetishists. You know how dudes are always asking how to get their ladies to be wild in bed, and they'll say "Honey, tell me your fantasies," and supposedly the ladies reply "I don't really have any"? That's them. They like sex because it feels nice and because it's loving and intimate. Rose petals and eye contact and shit. And I'm over here going "Right, but could you maybe objectify me a little?"

This was a non-issue for several years because my sex drive was nil thanks to depression and then Zoloft. If I could muster up enough libido to fuck, I wasn't interested in bells and whistles. For about the last year, though, I've consistently been interested in sex. And then I spent three months dating a guy I was ridiculously sexually compatible with -- bi, kinky, switchy, horny, talented, etc. That ended, I was completely emotionally ruined for a while, and I've only just opened up shop again, so to speak. And I'm discovering that 100% vanilla is not really cutting it anymore.

I spent the weekend with my medium-distance boyfriend, whom I see pretty much every other weekend since he lives about 100 miles away. We went to karaoke. I got tipsy. We were being very smoochy and gropey and flirty in our booth. After hemming and hawing for a while, I worked up the courage to tell him something I wanted him to do in bed. For all the game I talk about communication, this was actually quite scary for me. I was afraid he would laugh uncomfortably and pretend I never said anything, or go along with it even if it seemed weird and didn't feel right. It's pretty fucking tame, but I'm good at psyching myself out. It took two tall drinks for me to chill out enough to actually say "You know how I like it when you pull my hair? I also like a hand on my throat. Like, a lot."

And then we went home and had sex, and he totally choked me a little, and it was awesome. \o/

Trying to negotiate kink with vanilla men is interesting. I don't know if other switchy women have had this experience, but it seems like it's much easier to get a straight vanilla guy to do some light topping/domming than to do any kind of bottoming/subbing. Blah blah blah patriarchy. Fortunately I'm about 75% bottom/sub, so this works out acceptably. As much as I would love to tie them up and peg the hell out of them, I can live with this. (To their credit, they are both at least consistent -- they have no desire to give or receive any butt stuff.)
Music:: "Fear and Loathing," Marina and the Diamonds
Mood:: accomplished
hot_tramp: Mass Effect's Shepard and Garrus (mass-effect-shep-garrus)
that would take an obscene number of woman-hours to complete?

I also feel like all my ideas, while lady-centric, are insufficiently ~feminist~ for WisCon. Like, I'm pretty sure "Mass Effect Grrrrrrl Power" and "EDI is Awesome" lack the requisite cultural gravitas. Adding femslash usually helps, right?
Music:: "Who Am I Living For?" - Katy Perry
Mood:: creative
hot_tramp: daniel from lost is confused (lost-confused)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 08:03pm on 27/02/2013 under
WisCon wants newbie vidders to submit vids about feminism, technology, and sf/f? Well sheeeeeeeit. I have about eight ideas that could work for that. Remains to be seen if I can execute them competently and promptly, but deadlines are generally good for my creativity, so ... yee-haw?
Mood:: exhausted
hot_tramp: Mass Effect's Shepard and Garrus (mass-effect-shep-garrus)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 06:44pm on 23/02/2013 under , ,
Title: No Time for Doubt
Fandom: Mass Effect
Music: "Extreme Queen (Moby vs. Queen vs. Public Enemy)" by LeeDM101
Summary: Shepard leaves Eden Prime a changed woman.

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BABY'S FIRST VID! This ended up waaaaay more ambitious than I planned. It gave me lots of opportunities to experiment with Fraps, the Mass Effect command console, and Sony Vegas. I feel a little more prepared to start the ~artsy~ vids I've been pondering. Don't think I'm brave enough to post this to any comms, though.
Mood:: :D
Music:: Never listening to "Extreme Queen" again
hot_tramp: ten commandments kink (religion-kink)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 09:09am on 09/02/2013 under , , , ,
Right now, there's a throwdown on FetLife (a popular kinky social network) over content restrictions. It reminds me a bit of the old LJ battles -- except it looks like FL is going to end up with rules that are more restrictive than LJ's. Or at least, LJ's post-strikethrough rules. If they've tightened up over the last couple years, I wouldn't have noticed.

The credit card processing companies have been putting the squeeze on sex-related websites, telling them they will no longer do business with them unless they crack down on certain types of content. When this content is discussions about grooming children for sexual abuse, this crackdown is awesome. FL was taking a very lax position on such content, allowing communities about trufax non-fantasy molestation to continue. So, you know, fuck that, and yay for someone getting FL to shut that shit down.

The credit card companies are also insisting that FL disallow other "obscene" content. Remember that "obscene," in the U.S., means more than "pornographic." They are specifically calling out scat, bestiality, and incest (even among adults). And they're apparently asking that fictional content about these topics be forbidden, too.

This worries me. The AO3 doesn't have any such content restrictions. Does that mean the OTW is in danger of getting squeezed like this? I just wrote a moderately graphic teen sibling incest fic for Yuletide. (Based, mind you, on canon teen sibling incest from a 17th century play.) Is the OTW eventually going to be pressured to delete fics like that or lose the ability to take money from people through anything but BitCoin?
Mood:: worried
location: "Another Girl's Paradise," Tori Amos
hot_tramp: Rita Sue from Carnivale (Default)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 09:29am on 31/01/2013 under , ,
*taps microphone*

Been feeling fannish lately and missing my daily dose of fandom weirdos, so here I am.

Currently on a video game kick. Way too obsessed with Mass Effect right now. Developing an unhealthy fetish for Turians.

Seriously considering learning to vid. Likelihood of that actually happening? No idea. But I have some video editing experience, so that increases the odds a bit.

So what have I missed?
Music:: "The Man in the Long Black Coat," Joan Osborne
hot_tramp: slash? (grease-slash)
Dear Inception fandom:

Welcome! You have kick-ass source material, hot actors, and an active high-quality kink meme that's jump-starting things with style. So awesome! There's just one thing I need to ask of you:

Stop warning for slash.

Same-sex relationships are not something we need to "warn" for. LGBT relationships are not like graphic violence or nonconsensual sex. Warning for slash is not cute. It's homophobic, whether you intend it to be or not. Stoppit.

But please keep writing Arthur/Eames and Ariadne/Everyone!

Despite your fail, with love,
[personal profile] hot_tramp
hot_tramp: silk spectre and silhouette (watchmen-silkspectresilhouette)
posted by [personal profile] hot_tramp at 11:44pm on 25/06/2010 under , ,
I'm so good at procrastinating, you guys. Today, faced with the prospect of actually getting down and dirty and writing the porn bit of my fic, I was suddenly gripped by the overwhelming need to make an LJ icon to use when I eventually post said fic. Be prepared, that's my motto! So I spent about an hour looking for screencaps. No dice. Then I spent a half-hour installing a program that would allow me to make my own large batch of screencaps. Then I found out iTunes doesn't even sell the film in question, which makes NO goddamn sense, and [community profile] iheartcinema is closed, so forget pirating. Then I scoured dA for something suitable. Then I appropriated an appealing image and fucked around in GIMP for a while. VICTORY!

Did I mention that I also spent a couple hours fretting over my DW journal layout? Like, to the point that I registered an account at Colour Lovers so I could play with palettes and patterns more easily?

WRITING GETS ME SCURRED.

Also, I think I'm writing intellislash. Leaves aren't quite falling and swirling, but it's a close thing.

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